Triggered into a conversation about the hard stuff. Perfect Pieces Podcast Episode 2

I felt like I was in a glass case—able to see out, but certain that no one could see in. I was hurting all over, and my depression had taken me to new lows. The more I tried to hide my pain from others and deny it myself, the worse it became. I knew that people around me sensed something was off, but without acknowledging it, we all pretended everything was fine.

At one point, I found myself begging for help, asking to be hospitalized because the pain was unbearable. I looked into the mirror and saw no one looking back. Acknowledging my own self felt painful; I was numb, switched off, desperately trying to find peace.

Finally, I found the courage to talk. I expressed how bad things were and that I needed help. I didn’t want anyone to fix it—just the opportunity to communicate and express myself without advice. This shift in perspective helped my brain transition from wanting to die to wanting to try to live.

Hearing myself say the tough things made the situation real—the tornado swirling in my mind finally found its outlet. It became a matter outside of my head, something I could address and seek help for. That marked the beginning of my journey out of the deep loneliness that depression had ensnared me in.

I realized that nothing provides a quick fix, but even small steps can make a huge difference. Why is it so difficult to discuss mental health? We often treat asking someone if they are depressed or need help like a taboo subject.

Once I started sharing how bad things had become, I discovered that some good friends had experienced their own suicide attempts. I was shocked by this revelation, but when they shared their stories, there was relief in their voices. They expressed their embarrassment about how low life had brought them. I understood completely how one could reach that point. Even though I had never physically attempted to die, I didn’t judge their experiences or think, "How did you get there?"

Numerous people began to open up about their depression, whether they had hit rock bottom or were on the verge of doing so. When you share your story, no matter how difficult, it becomes a beacon for others struggling with shame, confusion, and denial about their own depression. Although our stories may differ greatly, the underlying definition of our experiences remains the same.

So, talk to someone—anyone.

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